Longing and desire lead to flirting with things you normally never dare to think of. Passion and need override common sense, logic and all reality. You want what you want and the world be damned. Other relationships fade away in the bright burning light of the new passion. Personalities clash, unrealistic expectations cause upset and sleepless nights. Rethinking and self-doubt make everything harder. Disappointment erases any sense of hope and joy you have and you walk away.
Until...
You catch a glimpse of your former love. Perhaps across a crowded room. Although, that's not very likely. You think about the passion and heartbreak and wonder if it's worth trying to make things right. Would it be worth the effort and compromise to face the dreadful truth about your own denial and try to fix it? Perhaps even try to make it work?
Not something you tell people about, of course. Once people know, those people will want to know how it's going. Either in an attempt to be supportive or because they're nosy or because they have their own ill-fated love affairs of their own. The fear of being judged is too much. Best to keep quiet until you know how things are going to turn out.
Honestly, I'm still not sure how it's going to turn out. Will we be happy together? Will this lead me to other affairs or will this be my one and only? Yeah, it's me. It's not like I can be faithful to just one, but who knows what a girl might be willing to do for love?
I continue to worry about denial and lack of compatibility but we'll see how it goes once the cardi is done blocking and shit.
What? Did you think I was talking about something else? *L*
I knew exactly what you were talking about.
Posted by: Carole | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 03:53 AM
Can't fool me! :-)
Posted by: Kym | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 04:45 AM
You brat;-P I was on the edge of my seat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by: CindyCindy | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 04:45 AM
Can't fool me, either. I have faith in you, in the cardi. I see happiness and joy in both your futures. Maybe even when you're together!
Posted by: margene | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 05:08 AM
Monogamy is overrated. Just sayin' Something else will catch your eye and you will fall hard again. And you do tell us when it doesn't work. It's your crankiness.
Posted by: Stacey | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 06:36 AM
hahaha I love you.
Posted by: Sairy | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 07:14 AM
No, I didn't. But I had a teeny glimmer of hope.
The cardigan will probably be more reliable, anyway.
Posted by: Cheryl S. | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 07:17 AM
Have you ever thought about writing a novel? I think you could be good at it. :D
Yay! The cardi is done!
xoxo
Posted by: Marilyn | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 07:33 AM
Once I delete you from my phone, that's it. So if this cardie doesn't come up well, it's outta here. (Well that's just me the hardnose.)
Posted by: silvia | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 08:37 AM
ROTFLMAO! I hope you show us modeling shots! You can wait until the weather cools off. :)
And that yarn you made the other day? So pretty. I love that color. Make something pretty with it because that yarn deserves it. :)
Posted by: Helen | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 09:59 AM
Yay, an FO! I'm sure it will leave you wondering why you ever left..
Posted by: Kelly | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 11:59 AM
I thought maybe you were talking about your wheel. Or your latest plying. ;^)
Posted by: Anne | Tuesday, July 31, 2012 at 03:59 PM
I figured you'd gotten back into cross stitch.
Posted by: Kitten | Wednesday, August 01, 2012 at 12:08 PM
Oh! Can't wait to see it!
Posted by: Natalie | Wednesday, August 01, 2012 at 04:27 PM
hehe
xo
I knit at a train stop today after not doing so for about 4 months. It felt so good (and it kept me awake)
Posted by: KellyS | Wednesday, August 01, 2012 at 06:22 PM
Love! xoxo
Posted by: Sarah | Friday, August 03, 2012 at 07:28 PM
Cardi, my ass. I know who/what you were talking about. Whatever floats your boat ;-)
Posted by: kmkat | Sunday, August 05, 2012 at 11:37 AM